CANT BREATH

Really tired....
mentally....
i dunno how long i can bare with all these...
Human r shallow.
they only focus on the physical things like what they see or heard.
And then they make judgment based on that.
This is the weakness of human being,
always trapped by beautiful lies and packages.
this is why Advertising works even though we knew that it's a lie.

so, human,
Do u think your 'package' reveal your true self?
I believe most of you will say "NO",
If it is so,
Then why u wanna judge ppl by their package?

Explanation is for those who dun understand you.
if they trust you, they dun ask for explanation,
if they dun trust you, no point u explain to them,
coz either way,
they already doubt abt your personalities.

I hv no commitment in evreything

finally i realize tat i hv no attachment with all my frens...
i dun really stick wit certain group of ppl.
i dun really close with anyone,
i join different gang all the time,
and tat cause me almost no group for assignment.
before the sem starts,
everyone wants me,
makes me feel so glad and confused,
so i was undecided.
when the sem starts,
'cool'...
everyone stick with each other except me floating among the crowd~~~~~~~
haiz....
well, at least i join the EXPERT group at the end.
I cant describe how i feel now.
too complicated.

b4 the sem starts,
i tot i can put down all the pass n move on my life,
i tot it's the beginning of my new life,
but it's juz the beginning of the nightmare.
academic, performance, and 'something' is killing me slowly.
i'll hv heart attack everyday.
life is getting miserable and harsh now.

haiz...
another thing is...
i'm getting more gayish~
my dancing crew tot i'm lesbian.
it's not the first time ppl suspected on my sexual preference,
someone told me tat,
i keep repeating boys r sux after i'm drunk,
omg...hahaah...
anyway, it doesn't matter.lol...

ok, back to some serious stuff.
i'm going to sit for hiragana test tomolo.
and still, i'm blogging here.
gonna fail it.

Thx God for giving me a lesson

hmm....
finally i can access to utar portal n check my result.
i noe i did it badly.
before i check it,
i was like...
omg!!!pls let me exceed 3.0
otherwise, i'm gonna die!

i take my breath i scroll down the page.
arg.....
2.9887
ish~~~~~
i stunned in front of my pc for few seconds.
then i think back wat i hv done during the study week.
outings, procrastination, online, and emo....
FINE LA.
I ACCEPT TIS RESULT.
AND I THINK I DESERVE IT.
so...tis is it!


surprisingly,
i'm not really sad abt it.
even it's the worst result i ever had.
coz no point feeling bad abt it when u didn't really put effort on it.
plus i still hv three years to go...
i hv chances...

i always believe that,
things happen for its purpose,
and tis is its purpose,
the result activate my study mode.
thx God for giving me a lesson.

i noe from now on,
i'm gonna fully focus on my study,
i need some discipline,
nothing gonna influence me now.
yes!GAMBATE EVERYONE!!!!

Should've Said No!

It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you feels wrong

You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same

You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

I can't resist before you go tell me this
Was it worth it? Was she worth this?
No, no, no, no, no, no

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

真的结束了吗？

可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真是的感受
至少忐忑会告一段落。。。

“我们。。。
就这样。。。
结束了吗？”

如果我能听见你的心声，
那会是一件好事，还是坏事呢？
我在你心里算什么？
一个呼来唤去的玩偶？
还是你根本没想过我？


只怕。。。
事实只会让我更难过。。。

FOOD that can make me happy^^

"hometown" white coffee^^ (i'm super coffee addict)

mama's cook- Pizza!!!


Hv a closer look.saliva dripping?

Macdonald's sunday chocolate^^

Irresistible!!!

omg!My favourite!!!CHESSY WAGES^^

自我 增值～

要考试了。。。
心里闷闷的，
不知道什么时候，
开始觉得，
前面的路
越来越模糊，
越来越暗，
越来越可怕。

而我，
就越来越看不见自己的未。。。

很多话想写，
可是华语太烂。
表达不到。
是时候增值自己了。